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Learning to Love

During a very difficult time in my life there was a person who entered into my life. Someone who was supposed to love me. This was the position in life that this person chose to be a part of, but instead of loving me she hated me. The truth is, she didn’t even know me. She had never spent any time with me. Although she was given several  opportunities to spend time with me, she refused to. She hated me not because of anything I had said or done but simply because of who I was in this life. The position that I held that she felt threatened by. And that hatred was given not only to me, but to others in my extended family. She hated and caused great pain and intense heartache to those she should have loved and cared for. She brought separation to a family instead of togetherness.  She tried desperately to destroy the bond of a very close and loving family, and in some ways she succeeded.  Through this experience, I learned to hate. I had never truly hated before, not this deep, overwhelming feeling of hate. I may have not liked people before, but hate is so much different; so much more of an intense feeling. Hate fills you and consumes you. Hate will destroy you. It separates you from God’s fellowship and His protective covering. Your prayers will fall flat to the ground because unconfessed hatred and unforgiveness cannot enter God’s holy presence where fellowship is meant to dwell. But this person who was supposed to love me and my family, who was supposed to show us love and be an example of love to us, this person who was supposed to reach out to us in a time of our lives when we were all so deeply hurt, this person who was supposed to help bring healing instead inflicted pain and reached out with malice, contempt and hatred. And so, I learned to hate.

I knew hate was wrong but what was so much harder to handle than the hatred poured out on me was watching hatred being poured out on the people I loved so much and who were suffering at her hands. And more specifically this one very special person to me. This person who I believed I was supposed to watch over and protect but she lived outside of my protection. I felt so helpless. I was asked by her to not help, but to allow her to suffer on her own.  I could hardly stand it. She would call in pain and in tears so often at the mercy of this person’s cruel treatment in her life and I could do nothing but helplessly stand by and watch and listen.  And my hatred which started and developed from unforgiveness grew.

As my hatred grew so did the distance between my heavenly Father and I. I stopped fellow-shipping with Him. I stopped reading and spending time in the Word. I went to church for my children. If it had not been for my love for my children and knowing in my heart what was the right thing to teach them, I would have stopped going to church, for my love, although it was still there,  had grown cold and stagnant for my God. Emotionally I was a mess and physically I was sicker than I had ever been in my life. Hatred, which is always the fruit of unforgiveness, will destroy you. It comes from the enemy whose one and only purpose is to kill and destroy.

But thankfully, the Lord never gave up on me. He brought people in my life to help me along this journey. He led me to a place where healing would begin. He taught me to forgive. And forgive, I did. Healing in my body and my spirit began to take place. My relationship with my Lord soared to new heights. Such sweet fellowship! As I learned to submit to the Lord’s authority and to forgive, He taught me to love even those I thought unlovable.  For truly, no one is unlovable. It is not the other that must be changed, it is always the self. For if God loves all, no matter what, who are we to not love? Am I really so arrogant as to think I am better than the person whom I think is unlovable? Is that person’s sins any worse than the sins that the Lord has forgiven me of? A resounding NO! All people are lovable because love is a condition of the persons’ heart who is administering that love. It has nothing to do with the other person.  What that person has or hasn’t done, should never affect the heart that loves.  As I chose to forgive and purposed in my heart to love and committed myself to love, we grew close, the Lord and I.  Closer than we had ever been. My love for the Lord increased momentously.  Love and hate can never live together. One will always choke out the other.

And so, even in the midst of this hatred being continually poured out on me and those I loved, even in the midst of the lies that were continually being told about me and those close to me, I learned to love this person that hated us. But the love that I gave to her was on the very lowest level of love. I treated her with respect and with kindness. My actions towards her were in love and there was no hatred or unforgiveness in my heart towards her. What I did, I did for the Lord. But emotionally, I could not feel love for her. There was no “feeling” of love at all. And even though we are taught that love is not a feeling, but an action, shouldn’t there be some feeling of love when you love someone? I desired with everything in me to love her for my Lord and I truly did love her to the very best of my ability. I simply refused to allow myself to hate or to hold any unforgiveness towards her no matter what she said, did, or continued to say or do. Love is always a choice, and I chose to love. God’s word teaches that forgiveness is not always something we have to do just once, sometimes it is continuous. Sometimes we must forgive over and over again. And isn’t that what the Lord does for us? For how many of us have completely stopped sinning? I am so glad that God’s forgiveness is a well that never runs dry. And God’s word teaches us that we are supposed to be like Him. Forgiveness and love walk hand in hand together. Where there is no forgiveness, there is no love. And to love, even in this very basic way, meant that I had to crucify my flesh and the desires of my flesh daily. I loved out of obedience to my God and his Word and out of my desire to have sweet fellowship with Him.

Years passed as I walked in this level of love for this person. And then one day recently, as I was fellow-shipping with my Lord he said to me,
“I want you to love her like she never hurt you”.
“I want you to love her like she never hurt you.”
“But I don’t know if I can trust her.”
“I did not ask you to trust her. I asked you to love her like she never hurt you.”

And so this new journey began. And in a matter of just weeks, as the Lord, through his grace, helped me, I began to not only love this person more, but to feel love for her. As the walls began to come down, love began to grow. And she could feel it, too, because she expressed to others how we all of a sudden had begun to grow close! The walls are still coming down; love is still in the process of growing.  There is nothing sweeter than sweet fellowship with the Father. And there is no sacrifice, no act of obedience that is not worth the cost of that fellowship. What my Lord asks me to do, I, along with His grace, will do. Though my flesh may scream and recoil, I will crucify it and it will submit. I will become more like my Father and I will walk in love towards my sisters and my brothers. Trials are never easy, but they bring about the desired changes, for our good, that God desires in our lives.

There was a man named Judas in the Bible. Most people know about Judas and how he betrayed Jesus. I think about how this man must have truly hurt the very heart of Jesus. Jesus fellow-shipped with him daily. He ate with him, broke bread with him and laughed with him. He was one of his close companions. Jesus sent him out along with the other eleven disciples to minister and perform miracles. Jesus loved him. And he never treated him any different than the other eleven. This is evidenced at the last supper when Jesus announced that one of the twelve would betray him and they all wondered who it was. They had no idea! Jesus loved Judas as much as he loved all his disciples and although he knew the things Judas did and would do, he loved him as if he never had and never would hurt him.  I am sure that Judas’ kiss of betrayal hurt Jesus deeply.  Yet Jesus loved him as if he never hurt Him.

There were people along the path in the course of Jesus’ last day that cursed Him, spit upon Him, and pulled out his beard. They hated him.  Yet Jesus said, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do”.  Jesus suffered mercilessly at the hands of those who beat him, scourged him, mocked him and crucified him. Yet, he willingly forgave them, then stretched out his arms and died for them. Jesus loved them as if they never hurt Him.

I believe that Jesus’ feelings and emotions run deep.  What man, besides Jesus, has ever prayed so earnestly that he sweat great drops of blood. Yes, His emotions run deep. Jesus loves deeply. There is no hatred in Him, for God is love. And if His spirit dwells within me, then I have that love within me and the ability to love even those who hate me and despitefully use me. Hatred does not come from the Father, so if I have hatred or unforgiveness in me, where does that come from? And can the two dwell together? No! So I choose to love. I choose to forgive. I will allow only love to dwell within me and will not give in to the desires of my flesh. Is this possible with me alone? No! But, through God and his grace, I will love like I have never been hurt. And the joy of this love floods my spirit and my soul. Thank you Father, for your mercy, love, and grace that is with me daily, empowering me to do all things through Christ who strengthens me spiritually, physically, and emotionally.  I love you, Lord! I love you so very much! Thank you for loving me, always. Thank you!

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. Matthew 6:14-15 NIV

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times? “Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.”  Matthew 18: 21-22 NIV

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Colossians 3:12-14

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The High Places

Have you ever wondered about the high places in the bible? I was reading through the Old Testament 1 Kings and 2 Kings and it kept mentioning the high places. The high places were sites or shrines where idolatry was engaged in. The bad kings would put them up and the good kings would take them down. But with the exception of just a couple of kings, Hezekiah and Josiah, even the good kings would leave some or all the high places and the word says, “they did good in the eyes of the Lord” or “their heart was perfect with the Lord all their days” even though some or all of the high places remained throughout their reign. I had a hard time understanding this. Why did the Lord consider them good when they allowed the high places of idol worship to remain? How could their hearts be considered perfect before the Lord if these high places were still there? I was pondering this in my heart for a few days or weeks and then one day in my quiet time with the Lord he spoke to me and this is what he said: Continue reading

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July 16, 2013

Times of suffering and times of pain come to many of my children.  I do not desire these times, nor do I create them. It is not my will or my purpose to induce pain or suffering to any of my children. Faith is lacking among my people. It is shallow. I have not changed. I am still God. I am still your healer and your provider. I still say yes to all my promises. However, in these times of pain and suffering if my children will allow me, I will use these times to cleanse and to grow. To heal and to restore, to gather my children unto myself. But understand, I did not cause the pain or the suffering. It is not approved by me, but it is used by me. I would rather all my children to walk in perfect health. But that requires a walk of faith and of love on my children’s side. Many perish because of lack of faith and knowledge. I cannot do anything outside of faith. And love empowers that faith. Do not get discouraged, my daughter. I see, I feel, and I hurt over the pain and suffering my children must, at times, endure. It is not my will, or my purpose. But do not get discouraged, continue to draw close to me. Learn to trust me and to continually walk in faith. Faith must grow. It cannot remain stagnant. It is either growing or fading. Faith is action and action is motion. Faith is always moving. What direction is yours moving in? This should be a daily question. Daily, take account of yourself. And if you are daily moving forward, if you are daily growing and your faith is not working, then examine your heart. Who are you not loving? Love and faith work together. You must have both. Love by my standards, not the world’s. Examine your heart daily.

My people need me now more than ever. But they don’t know it yet. There is an attack on my people stronger than any other time in history. The enemy’s time is getting short. He knows it. He is attacking harder than he ever has before. He is gaining strength through lack of prayer and lack of faith. He is taking my people one by one by one. Now more than ever, my people need to gather together in unity. Unity of faith and of prayer. This is the only way to prevail over the enemy. Division gives the enemy power. Unite, my children, unite! Draw together in prayer. People of faith must bind together as one. This is a strategic tactic. The enemy cannot prevail against a united stronghold.

Pray for my people. Pray for unity. My church must come together as one people. The enemy’s camp is strong. They are united in one purpose; destruction. My people are scattered and broken, prideful, disconnected, and un-jointed. They must come together as one.

My daughter, keep praying, keep believing, keep trusting, do not get discouraged. I am with you and I hear every prayer you pray. Trust me. I love you dearly.

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June, 2, 2013

If my people could see what I see, if they could hear what I hear, if they could feel what I feel, the altars would be full. For my people are in chains. From the youngest to the oldest. From their innermost being their cries call out to me. My throne room is filled with their tears, their sorrows, their hurts, their fears. I long to release them, to set them free from the chains that bind them. But they do not cry out for release. Their tears are for self. They are comfortable in their chains. To release them would mean freedom. But freedom is not what they are seeking. For freedom from bondage is freedom to serve. Freedom to do what they know they are called to do. But it is fear that holds them back. Fear that keeps them in chains. Oh if my people would learn to love one another. To stop judging one another. To stop walking in a cloak of self-righteousness. Did you know that gossip is a spirit of self-righteousness? It speaks and spews its vomit over everyone who listens. If my people would take off their self-righteous clothes, if they would humble themselves before others and stop lifting themselves up in their own eyes above their brothers and their sisters, if they would speak words of encouragement, words that lift up and not tear down. If they would learn to walk in true humility and love, then fear would be cast out and chains would be broken.

Their cries reach my throne room and I long to reach out and help. But my people cling to their chains and they recoil from my touch. I long to set them free! But before true freedom can come, love must prevail. For without love there can never be true freedom. Love one another with a pure love. As you would want to be loved, love others. As you would want to be served, serve others. For as you serve with a pure heart, you learn to love. Step outside your safety zone of the familiar. Learn to love and serve all. And if my people would do this, if they would truly love and not hate, they would find their freedom and help others to find theirs. You cannot say you love your brothers and your sisters if you are gossiping about them. Gossip is hate. It tears down, it kills, it destroys. It is hatred, and it is infectious. It contaminates all who hear. Learn to walk in true love. Freedom is meant for all and I desire to set my people free.

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May 30, 2013

This is not the time to be complacent. This is the season of preparation. Prepare yourselves, arm yourselves for war. There is a spiritual battle on the horizon. One as my people has never known before. Prepare yourselves! Study my word. Let it fill your innermost being. You must gain direction and understanding. Wisdom is knocking at your door. Let her in. Complacency will destroy you. You must rebuke it! Rise up and be strong. Be firm, be committed, and be established. My Word is the firm foundation on which you will stand. Without it you will surely fall, and great will be your fall!

Through the blood of my Son, you have found freedom. That freedom is meant for all. Give that which was freely given to you. For time is short, it is quickly running out. Do not fear man or what man can do to you. For I am with you, watching over you, leading you, preparing you, protecting you. But even though I lead, even though I guide, even though I prepare – you must do the work or else you will fail. There is so much work that needs to be done. When will my people put me first and seek out wisdom? When will they stop going their own ways and doing their own things? I have plans, good plans for my children who obey me and follow me daily. Come, my dear children, come. Now is the time of preparation. Sit at my feel and learn from me. Listen to what I will speak to you. Do not put your trust in self, riches, or men. Rely solely on me. Put your trust in me and in my Word. Be a part of what I am doing in these last days. Yes, my plans will surely come to pass, in the appointed time, but you can play a role in these plans and in these times. You can make a difference in your life and in the lives of those around you. Will you and those around you come through victoriously? Or will you and the others around you fall as my plans are being established? Do not take your role lightly, for lives are at stake. Be prepared. Arm yourselves for battle. Stand firm and believe me and my words. Be people of faith and action. For faith without works is truly dead. You have much to learn and much to do. Now is the time for preparation. Sit at my feet, listen, learn, study, obey. Learn of me, learn of my ways. I am waiting.

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April 26, 2013

The time is quickly approaching, a time of singing and dancing and worshipping the Lord. A time for miracles, signs, and wonders to once again be seen by my people. The world will see and take notice. For a season there will be peace. Then a time of great persecution will follow. Persecution like this world has never seen. Many will perish forever. Many will rise up and live forever. Great and mighty is the God of the ages! His plans and purposes will be established on this earth and in the heavens! Man makes his plans, God has set his. They are already in motion. The time is swiftly coming. Prepare yourself. Arm yourself for battle. For great and mighty will this battle be, and only those who are prepared will stand. All others will fall. And great will be their fall. Help prepare my people. Teach them truth. Show them how to wear it and apply it. It must be more than just on their lips. It must be in their hearts and in their spirits. They must know and be thoroughly convinced of the truths of my word. Without this they will not stand. Yes, a great persecution is coming. But before that, a great awakening. Do not sleep through it. For this will be your time of strengthening. You will need what the Spirit will abundantly and freely give during this season to make it through to the next. Remember the famine that came to the land? During the seven years of plenty they gathered enough to keep them strong through the years of famine. Now is the time to start gathering and to start storing. Now is the season. What is plentiful today will soon be gone. And only that which you have stored will remain. Be strong. Stand firm. Awaken. Arise. Move forward. Now is the season! Awaken, my church, awaken!

If you allow yourselves to be distracted by the things of and in this world, if you allow yourselves to remain busy and do not set time for me  and my word daily, you will be weak and ill-prepared for what is coming. I must be first. I must be your priority! Study. Learn. Believe. Apply. Make your spirit a storehouse that is full of my words and my truth. Awaken, my church, awaken!

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March 20, 2013

Sandy, my daughter, my friend, how I love you. How I love and cherish these times together. As you seek me and draw nearer to me daily I will draw nearer to you. I will teach you and I will show you things you have never seen before. You will speak things never spoken before. Some will listen, some will not. My word is a dividing line. It is a revealer of hearts. It is not meant to separate my children from me forever, but to draw them near to me. For they have fallen in pits of complacency and do not know how to climb out. Their strength is gone so they do not even try. The world and everything in it has distracted them. This is the plan of the enemy. But I have a plan, too! It is a good plan and I will bring my people out of this pit and those who are truly mine will come out with shouts of joy! They will reach out and help their brothers and sisters. There will be healing in their tongues and in their hands. They will reconcile others to me. There is coming a great renewing of my word in the lives of my people. They will rise up once again before that great and terrible day. This will surely happen.

Continue to draw near to me. Let me be first in your life always. Put aside those things that distract. The things that steal your time. For time is short, so regard it as precious and use every minute wisely. My eye is upon you. I am watching you and waiting to see and to act on your behalf and the behalf of all my children. I love you, my daughter. Continue to draw near to me daily.

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The Egg

Have you ever thought about the egg? It’s hard shell – sometimes white, sometimes brown, sometimes clean, and sometimes dirty.  The shell of the egg is what touches the world. They are nice to decorate and then sit around and stare at the beauty you have created. But basically they are not really good for much more than holding the insides in place. If you break the shell and separate it from the egg you can’t even say that the shell is an egg anymore. It’s just a shell and therefore good for nothing more than tossing in the trash. Then there is the lovely white that sits between the shell and the yolk. It can be used to make the sweetest desserts that appease the palate and tempt the flesh – mmmm. And finally there is the yolk. The ‘meat’ and life of the egg.

Have you ever thought about you; your body, your soul, and your spirit? Have you ever compared yourself to an egg? It’s a pretty good analogy. Your body is like the shell of the egg. You can decorate your body, make it look real pretty and then sit around and stare at the beauty you have created. Your body is what physically touches the outside world with its five senses. It can hear, see, smell, touch, and taste. But if the body is broken and separated from the soul and the spirit, it is then good for nothing more than to be buried or burned. The soul is like the white of the egg. It is a barrier between our spirit and our body. Our soul is what carries our emotions and our feelings. Then there is our spirit; the ‘meat’ of who we are and our very life. For where there is spirit, there is life. There cannot be life without a spirit. Our spirit is who we truly are.

Just like you can scramble together the yolk and the white until the two seem the same and inseparable, in your mind you can scramble together the soul and the spirit until the two seem as though they are one. We are constantly ruled by our emotions and our feelings. We feel sad – so we act sad, we feel mad so we act mad, we feel happy so we act happy, etc., etc., and on we go with this roller-coaster of a life.

But if we look at ourselves in the mirror of God’s Word – the truth of who we really are, we will see that the soul and the spirit are different and separable. However, only the light of the Word of God can truly separate the two. (Hebrews 4:12) This is done by the renewing of the mind with the truth of God’s Word. Who does God’s Word say that you are? It says you are God’s child. It says you are fearfully and wonderfully made, it says you are the healed, the saved, and the sanctified child of the Most High God. It says you have been made righteous, it says you can enter into the very throne room of God. It says you have the same resurrection power in you that raised Christ from the dead. It says that you don’t have to receive any words that have been spoken against you, but you can refute them as part of your inheritance and therefore they can do you no harm. The list goes on and on and on- God’s promises are amazing and freeing! But only to those who know them, believe them, and apply them.

So often we wonder how we can have peace in the midst of a storm. If we live according to our soul with its emotions and feelings then we can never have real peace and the imitation peace we get is fleeting at best. But if we learn to let the spirit take its rightful place in our lives (first place) then we will teach our soul the truth so it will come in agreement with our spirit and our bodies will have to submit. However the spirit will never have first place within us as long as God’s Word is not first in our lives. A renewing of the mind is a conscience effort. God’s Word says, “Study to show thyself approved unto God, a workman who needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth”.  (2 Tim. 2:15) God’s Word does not say, “Read to show thyself approved”, it says, “study…” and it also calls those who do so “workmen” not “hobbyists”.

How is it that so many Christians seem to be very good worriers when God commands us throughout His Word not to worry about anything! And it says not to fear approximately 365 times. Worry and fear go hand in hand. The reason we worry and fear so much is simple. It is because we have not renewed our minds with the Word of God and so we are ruled by our flesh, and our emotions, and not our spirit. To live a victorious life it is essential that we learn to look intently into the mirror of God’s Word and learn who we truly are in Him. Then we must apply this to our lives and act upon what we have read. Faith without works is dead. Only then will we live the fullness of this life that we are supposed to be living.

Here’s an example – we read in God’s word and know that it says we are conquerors and more than overcomers, but when we make a mistake or something goes wrong in our lives, we sit down and have a pity party. This is when we are not being doers of the Word. We are allowing ourselves to be ruled by our emotions and our flesh. God’s word says that we must crucify the flesh daily. Look at what Jesus suffered through when He was crucified on the cross. Crucifying the flesh is not easy, but we are to be doers of the Word, so crucifying the flesh is what we must do – daily.

So now, let me encourage both you and me that the next time we have a seemingly bad day, or week, or year, let us open up the mirror of God’s Word and find out who we truly are in Christ. Do not allow this world that Satan is the god of (2 Cor. 4:4), rule our emotions. Command our spirit to take control of our emotions and our flesh. Let’s be the children of God that we were created to be!

In summation; we are a spirit, we have a soul, and we live in a body. Our body has a purpose but only does what the spirit and soul lead it to do. Our soul (emotions) will desire to automatically take control because this is how we have been trained since we were born. But the born again child of God has a re-created Spirit made in the image of God and is filled with the fullness of God. God’s Holy Spirit abides in our spirit. There He will lead us, guide us, and teach us. We are the temple of the Holy Ghost. Our soul and our body should be in total submission to our spirit. As we renew our mind in the mirror of God’s Word and learn to listen to and obey the Lord, we will live the full overcoming, fulfilling life that God has already provided for each of us to live. Let’s do it!

The mind of sinful man [Or mind set on the flesh] is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; (Romans 8:6)

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:2)

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. (John 10:10)

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”  (Joshua 1:9) 

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jer. 29:11)

For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. (Rom. 8:14)

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?  You are not your own; you were bought at a price.  Therefore honor God with your body,” (1 Cor. 6:19-20)

“For this reason I kneel before the Father,  from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name.  I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,  may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,  and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”  (Eph. 3:14-21)

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March 17, 2013

Why do my people not desire me? Why do they not hunger after me? Why do they not want the power within them? Why do they not come running to the altar where they will find what they need? Why do my children remain standing at the foot of the mountain? They do not hunger for me. They hunger for self. They simply do not want what I have to offer. The price for them to pay is too high. They lack faith and they lack belief. Their desires are of this world and of the flesh. There is soon coming a dividing line. I will draw a line between those who hunger after me and those who hunger after self. It will be plainer and plainer to see.  They that hunger after me, I will withhold no good thing. Those that hunger after self will never be satisfied. There will be no peace or rest for those whose desires are for this world and for themselves. I will give them what they want, yet they will not be satisfied. But the righteous who hunger after me will be filled and will be satisfied. Yes, a dividing line is coming. So leave, you hypocrites whose hearts are far from me! I would rather you be hot or cold, but since you are lukewarm I will spew you out of my mouth! I desire those who desire me. You see, you are not an unlearned people, you know the truth, but you choose your own way. So go your own way, make room for those who desire to serve me. And when you turn and see what I am doing among my people, your heart will burn with jealousy. Then you will want what you do not have and your spirit will long for those things that I have wanted for you all along. But be forewarned – seek me while I may still be found by you. Come quickly before the doors close. For the day is at hand. I am coming soon for a bride who is ready. So make haste and turn to me quickly. I am not a God who desires evil, I love all my children and show no favoritism, but I draw near to those who draw near to me. Do you feel far from Me? Draw near and I will meet you at that place where you will find me. Come quickly, I say, come quickly and don’t look back. I long for  you. Do you long for me? Search your heart. Examine yourself. What do you really want? Where do your true desires lie? Judge yourself so you will not be judged. I am coming quickly! The dividing line is at hand. What side will you be found on? I love those who love and fear me. So many of my people do not fear me. That is why they go their own way. Those that fear me love me, honor me, and obey me. Those who do not fear me turn from me. They go their own way and do their own thing, day after day. I am a loving and patient God, but time is quickly passing. I am coming soon. The dividing line is at hand. What side will you be found on? Choose whom you will serve, but serve with your whole heart. Do you hear what I am saying? Do you understand? I am coming soon! Hear me! I am coming soon!

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March 14, 2013

My people call out to me, but they do not hunger for me. They seek me yet don’t find me because they do so with half a heart. They are not all in. My word says that when you search for me with your whole heart, then you will find me. When you hunger after me as a starving man hungers after food, then you will find me. I long to be found by my people! I long to show myself strong to the nations through my people! This world is dying fast, and I am coming soon. I wait for those who will come to know me. I long for those who never will. It is not my desire for any man to perish but I cannot wait much longer. The time is coming soon. The anguish that is in my soul for those who are lost and will remain lost, pierces me deeply. I hurt for them! But I also hurt for those who are mine, but walk as if they are not. They are lost like sheep without a shepherd. Yet, they have a shepherd. They just choose not to follow, not to obey, not to listen. They don’t heed my Word. It just sits on their shelves as a status symbol, more than anything else. Ask them! Just ask them what are some of my promises. Most won’t know them. Some know a few. And of the few that know them, even less know them completely, and how to apply them.  Like medicine that sits in a cabinet or on a shelf, safe in its bottle, are my words tucked between its covers.  Useless to the ones who need them, until it is taken properly and applied to their lives. My Word is alive and active! It was never meant to sit on shelves, it was meant to live inside living vessels, flowing through their blood streams, becoming alive and active within and without. Their spirits are meant to be storehouses of my Word, but they are starving and severely undernourished. When calamity comes, my Words – my promises – are not there! Therefore, what they have stored in their souls comes forth. Worldly directives take precedence over my Word, for that is what is stored within them. When will my people take my words seriously? When will they believe me? When will they act and walk in true faith? Faith unfiltered through the soul, but faith that comes directly from the spirit? When? When? When? I lovingly wait, and painfully watch as my people are destroyed one by one for lack of knowledge and understanding.  For fear of walking in truth.  Fear of persecution, not only from the world, but from within their own families, from within my church! They discourage more than encourage. They mock more than they lift up. They discourage my people and my words from being used properly. Let them go! They that mock and stare and judge falsely – let them go so that they who are desiring to grow can grow. For it is through those who long for me and seek me daily, that I will show myself strong. From the very young to the very old. I seek those who seek after me. Set yourselves apart to be holy. Sanctify yourselves and your land, for I am coming to see and to show myself strong and your camp must be holy. I will not dwell where there is sin. Not even “small” sin. I am a holy God and therefore I require holiness. Will a king jump into pig slop? Will he walk in it? Will he get his feet muddy with it? No! Never! Neither will I! Clean up the camp and I will draw near! Let those who go – go! Let those who remain, draw near. Be holy, as I am holy and you will see my power and my might. You will witness what I will do in and through and for my people. The time is drawing near. Sanctify yourself, I say. Sanctify the camp. Set yourself apart for me. I am your God.

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February 28, 2013

There is no one like the Lord your God who rides on the clouds to help you. There is no one like Him Who sees all and who knows all. Who is like the Lord your God, whose love abides over all His children? Is He so deaf that He cannot hear? Is He so blind that He cannot see? Come nearer. Come nearer! See the truth, know the truth, it shall set you free! You are a chosen people set aside for me, but the worries, concerns, problems, toils, and riches of this world hold you back. Your focus is not on Me or My Word. Wisdom is seldom sought out. She awaits those who seek Her. She is anxious to draw near to them, to teach them, to help them, to guide them. But they are very few. Where are they that diligently seek Me? That purposefully draws near to Me? Where are they?

Where are you, my child? Where are you as the days draw on? Where are you as each day passes by? What is it that has your main focus? Is it Me? Is it my Words? Where are the promises? Are they within you? Do you focus on them and meditate on them so that they are the main focus of your day? I have given you this time. What are you doing with it? Seek direction from Me and I will guide you and lead you with a gentle but firm hand. I will teach you. But you must obey and be willing to do all that I ask of you. When you go your own way and do your own thing without seeking me, it is as rebellion.  Like a child who awakens and pays no attention to the parent but goes about as he wills, so is the child who does not seek me daily.

I am not one who is to be put on a shelf and taken off when needed or wanted. I am not to be controlled or conformed by you! You are to be conformed by Me! I am to be in control by being placed first in your life on a daily basis. I am not to be a whim, someone thought about but not paid attention to until needed, or until you find the time. I am to be first! I am to be number one!

When you seek me with all your heart, when I am consumed by you, you will find what it is you are looking for. I am not hard to find as you may think. I am very near. Nearer to you than you know or are capable of believing at this time. You must seek more diligently, more thoughtfully, more purposefully. More! Half a heart, or part of a heart is not good enough for Me. You must be all in! Draw nearer. Dig deeper. Study harder. Pray more often. Hide my words within you. Practice them daily. I am as near as your words. Healing is not something to be sought after, it is something to be walked in. It is a part of who I created you to be. Trust in the promises. They are my words. When have I ever gone back on my words? When have I ever failed to keep a promise? Am I a mere man that I may lie, or forget, or neglect to keep my word? What are my promises that I have promised to you? Do you know them? Do you remind me of them? Do we sit in fellowship and talk about them?

I am not to be kept on a shelf and brought down when needed. I am not someone you go to when you find the time to fit me in. I am to be number one! And you will not be all you were created to be until I am Who I am in you – completely. I am not an afterthought. I am number one. I am your all-in-all. I am first and last in your daily walk and life. And I am all that is in between!

My children ask, and beg, and want, but I am far from them because they are far from me. They want to take, but they are not willing to give. Excuses, excuses, is what I get! Busy with this, busy with that. Where do I fit it? Am I to be just a small piece of the puzzle of their daily day? NO! I am to be the whole completed picture! I am to be wherever they are and whatever they are doing. But sadly, more than moments go by without even a thought of me.  Hours and days pass by. Yes, even months, and for some – years. Until they need me. Sure, some do the social thing and show up on Sundays, but their thoughts are far from Me. Their thoughts are on their day or their week or their family or their friends. But not on Me. Oh, how I long to be a daily part of not just their thoughts, but their lives! I want to be a part! I long for this! It is what I created my children for. But I cry out and no one hears. My voice is drowned out by the sounds of their fears, their problems, their worries, and their concerns. They turn to TV for peace, instead of Me. They turn to gossip with others, instead of wisdom and fellowship from Me. Oh, they are far from Me. They want so much but give so little.

Will you be different, my child? Will you draw near to me? Can I be more than a passing thought to you? Can I be more than someone who is put aside until you find the time, as you do other ‘more important’ things? Oh the riches I have that I desire to bestow on you and all my children who love me wholly! They are sitting and waiting. My storehouse is full but my children are in want because they do not draw near and take what rightfully belongs to them.

You cry out to me to show myself strong to the nations and to the world. Don’t you know that I want to! That I long to! Oh, how I long to! Even my children in the desert, as stiff-necked as they were, were easier to speak to than this generation. Upon correction they would humble themselves and ask for forgiveness. Not this generation! They are prideful and rebellious, bent on going their own way and doing their own thing. They raise their fist to me and vehemently disown me. They turn their backs to me and walk in their own ways. Yet, I am patient. I want them back! Oh, if they would only love and trust me! Will you? Completely? Fully? Will you give me your all? Or is the cost too high for you? Am I worth all of you? Will you be like the poor widow woman and give me all of you, until there is nothing else left to give? Or will you hold back and give me only a portion of yourself? You need to know what you are truly willing to give. And know this – you cannot give more to me than what I can give to you. You will never be more willing to give to me than I am willing to give to you. My storehouse is full. Just like Joseph’s. The people had to finally give him everything, even themselves, in order to receive from him. The same is true with me. As you continue to grow in Me, I require more and more of you. I require your all. I require everything you are, if you want more. I have more. Do you want more? No one is forced to give. You choose to give, with a joyful and expectant heart. You will not be disappointed. You will never give more than I.

I am here. I am very, very near. Don’t look at other people’s experiences. Ours will be a new and fresh one.  You and I.  Am I worth it? Or is the price too high? How much of Me do you want? How close do you desire to draw to me? The choice is yours. I am here. Patiently and lovingly waiting. Oh, how I love you and long for more of you! Oh, how I love you!

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As for Me…

As for me, far be it from me that I should sin against the Lord by failing to pray for you. 1 Sam. 12:23a

I cannot imagine a day without prayer. Without fellowship with the One who has stolen my heart. Oh Lord, save me from such a fate! Save me from the pit of contentment and complacency. Draw me nearer to you each and every day. My God, my Savior, my Friend. Let me enjoy sweet fellowship through prayer and worship with you each and every day. And should my day start so busy that I fail to pray, remind me Lord, and don’t let me lay my head to rest without sweet fellowship with You. For I need you, Lord, and so do they.

So often we struggle and wonder how, how do I grow closer in intimacy with the Lord? We go to bed thinking, “I meant to spend time with God today but my day got completely out of control. Tomorrow I will spend time with Him.” This cycle can continue for days, weeks, months and very possibly before we even realize it…years. Years with very little time spent alone with God. Our intentions are always good, but yet our days spin out of control. As Jesus told his disciples at the Garden of Gethsemane, “The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.” We really do want to spend time with our Lord, but there are so many distractions in our busy lives. The phone rings, the kids need us, the house needs cleaning, laundry needs washing, dinner needs cooking, have to get ready for work, have to go to work, a date with a friend, an appointment with someone for something, an unexpected visit from a friend, and so many other happenings during the day that so easily pull us away from that sweet personal fellowship with our heavenly Father.

So, how do we stop the cycle? Priorities. When He truly becomes our top priority the cycle will stop. When we make ourselves get up an hour before the rest of the household does, when we turn the cell phones off, take our home phone off the hook, find a quiet space in the house where there will be few distractions, often I have used my closet in the bathroom – people usually don’t bother me there.  Whatever it takes. We always make room in our lives for what is most important. How important is spending time with God in your life? The answer to that is how much room do we make for Him in our daily lives. It’s a self-evaluation.  I once had a group keep a daily calendar for one month. From the time they got up to the time they went to bed they were to record what they did each hour of each day. Every week when we got together they were to look at their calendar and evaluate it. It is so easy to see where our priorities lie when it is written down so clearly on paper.

Distractions happen to everyone. But they can, for the most part, be overcome by simply rearranging our days. The question is, “How important is it to you that you spend time with Him each and every day?” “For which of you, intending to build a tower, sits not down first, and counts the cost, whether he has enough to finish it?” Luke 14:28 The word, “tower” in the original Greek is “pyrgos” meaning, “a fortified structure rising to a considerable height, to repel a hostile attack or to enable a watchman to see in every direction.” In order to rise in our walk with the Lord, in order to be in a place where we can stand against every attack the enemy sends our way, in order to be that watchman who is prepared for whatever comes our way, we must place God first in our lives. Will it cost us something? Yes! It could cost you sleep, it could cost you TV time, or computer time, telephone time chatting with a friend, or whatever it is that steals that time away from time with God in your life. But as David, a man after God’s own heart said, “I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing.” If all we give God is our left-over time, how much have we really given Him? Leftovers after a while become boring, they lose their flavor, they lose all nutritional value and can cause more harm than good. Left over time with God can make us feel good, but is it really adding to our relationship with God or is it just filler to ease our conscience?  If we become satisfied with that type of relationship with God then we are in danger of falling into the pit of contentment and complacency.  Our relationship and our personal time with the Lord should be fun and exciting. Something we look forward to, not something we feel we have to do. This only comes when He is our top priority. It will never come from just Sunday mornings in church. It should come from private time with Him. That is truly where we will do the most growing in Him.  Intimate fellowship with the Father and entrance into his throne room is our privilege as His children.  Let’s take advantage of it!

Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O Lord. They rejoice in your name all day long; they exult in your righteousness. For you are their glory and strength, and by your favor you exalt our horn.” Ps. 89:15-17 (NIV)

“How blessed are the people who know the joyful sound! O Lord, they walk in the light of Your countenance. In Your name they rejoice all the day, And by Your righteousness they are exalted. For You are the glory of their strength, And by Your favor our horn is exalted.” Ps. 89:15-17 (NASB)

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A Minute Away from a Miracle

I love that God is also a poet! One day while in my quiet time with the Lord, He dropped this poem into my spirit. A beautiful gift from Him to me, and now to you, also.  I am not a poet at all and as with all the words God gives me I take  no credit for this poem. This was all God! I hope it blesses you as much as it has blessed me.


When times are tough and trials seem too much – remember I AM.

When hurts run deep and failure seems steep – remember I AM.

When hope dims and doubt begins – remember I AM.

When you feel alone whether in a crowd or at home – remember I AM.

When tears are falling and no one’s calling – remember I AM.

I AM the God that calms the storms.

I AM the God that refines your life.

I AM your Father. I AM your Friend. I AM your God.

When on your bed you pray the prayers through lifted hands and veils of tears – remember I AM.

When you sing the songs among the throngs and worship me on bended knee – remember I AM.

When laughter’s heard from all around but where you stand none is found – remember I AM.

Don’t worry about the friend that flees, don’t focus on the problems, please. Remember, I AM.

I AM your help in times of need.

I AM the God who always sees.

I AM the friend that never flees.

I AM your God.

I have a plan for you that’s right. Although at times it feels as dark as night. All things I have for you are good. I wish you could see it all. I really wish you could!

But little by little it shall be revealed. Trust me, my child, though much is concealed.

The time will come, as you will see,  and you will have learned to trust in Me.

Though times seem hard and overwhelming, there’s a reason for this season of melting.

For you are being formed and perfected. A vessel of honor to be used by the Master. You gave your life to me and I took it. You gave me your heart and I have seen it. Even the deep, dark chambers I have seen. For you have willingly kept nothing from me. I am here to clean and refine. To restore and make new. I have a plan for you.

The plans you make you must forsake.

Let Me direct your path, my child,

it’s tried,

it’s true,

it’s undefiled.

And some day when in My arms you’ll be, you’ll look back and then you’ll see –

The trail of tears flowing deep with trials became the beautiful river that flows with grace for miles.

It runs the path through mountains high and valleys low mixed together with heavenly rain which flowed from my throne.

But can you tell by looking my dear, where the tears began and the rain did end? They flow together as one through rocks and rapids, through calm and peace. Once shallow and still, now deep and full.

Watch closely now and listen, too. Shhhhh…. Be silent, and you shall hear. Do not, my child, do not fear. Here it comes…. Do you see it now? Listen closely to the sound. Oh the sight! The beautiful sight! Meant for watchful eyes and a heart that’s right. The falls, the beautiful falls! The cleansing falls that runs deep where few have dared to go. It calls you. Will you go? Will you go deeper in me? Will you trust Me? We’ll go together. Human tears and heavenly rain.

“Deep calls to deep. In the roar of Your waterfalls all Your waves and breakers have swept over me”. Ps. 42:7

Listen, and you shall hear. The time is drawing near, My child. Don’t stop now. Do not stand in the mirage of the calm. The adventure is still ahead of you. Rejoice! For the time is near and you are just a minute away from a miracle!

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Until We Meet Again

While creating a memorial slideshow for my 15 year old nephew who died suddenly one Christmas Eve, my heart was overwhelmed and this poem, inspired by the Lord, was created. If you are suffering a loss, I am so sorry. I hope this will bring you some comfort, if even on the smallest level.


Oh, for just a glimpse of heaven,
To see my loved ones there.
To behold the smiles upon their faces
To taste of joy beyond compare!

But if my earthly eyes could see,
Would my hurting end?
For how with mortal mind and soul
Can the spirit comprehend?

For I am bound by flesh and bones
But they, they are set free.
And should they catch a glimpse of me
Is it pity I would see?

For there they have no pain or sorrow,
No care, nor fear, or fret.
But here I struggle, weep, and worry,
My desires never met.

So if I had a glimpse of heaven
Could I aspire to remain
In this place of turmoil, sickness, and hardship,
Filled with so much pain?

And so with eyes of faith I’ll walk
And trust the One who sees
That in the course of time for me
Unanswered questions He’ll appease.

And then I’ll know beyond all doubt
What my heavenly Father knew;
His plans for me were always good;
His Word was faithful, trustworthy and true.

For life on earth is a blink in time
Given to us to prepare
For the eternity He has promised
To each of his children here.

So, I lay my questions at His feet,
And I’ll hold you in my heart,
Until the day we meet again
And embrace you in my arms.

Then hand in hand we shall stroll
Down streets made of pure gold
And we will share eternity filled
With peace and joy untold.